The problem about my life is nothing to do with lack of ability or talent.
The problem with my life is not unwillingness to work (though there are limits that I will place on this - my brain is my strength, my hands are only good for using a keyboard, and I WILL NOT UNDERTAKE VIRTUAL SLAVE LABOUR AT McDONALDS OR BURGER KING! I am a brain worker. I am also absolutely useless at selling things).
I have no great desire to be self-employed, although I tend to be an independent thinker, who will not conform just for the sake of it.
The major problem that I always have had, and probably always will have, is getting known.
When I was offered my first job in Germany, they were astonished just how brilliant was the quality of the work that I produced. It took a few weeks to get established, but after that, the sky was the proverbial limit.
After I left, I thought that my reputation would follow me ....
Some hope. It is always the same, nobody seems to like good news stories from the past.
Yesterday I applied for a post that I saw advertised on Elance.com. A translator. German to English, French to English I can do extremely well. I offered them a rate that was reasonable, and enough to allow me to survive here (after paying tax, medical insurance, rent, the ever increasingly extortionate utility bills etc.) and not a great deal more.
The rate was also less by 2 or 3 Eurocents per word than what I have seen offered on the professional translation sites.
Of course I am relatively new to Elance, and I only apply for the positions where I think my skills are appropriate, and where I could do an excellent job. So the number of applications that I have made is small.
I was also a bit wary when I noted that the provider had already rejected three other applications.
Anyway I still believed that maybe this person would recognise talent when it was made available to him.
Not so - back comes some nonsense that as I had not previously done anything on Elance, I was asking for too much money.
No point continuing with any negotiations. The money that I would have made from it was essentially very basic. I am not putting myself into debt, just to prove a point - I learned that expensive lesson in the 1980s.
Eventually the struggle for recognition goes on. Shy, introverted, talented people will always have this problem, or so it seems. I would like to be persuaded otherwise, but I am not optimistic.
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